Ok this was my day. Some if this was written at the time things were happening ( an then edited for a bit more clarity but I don’t think I did a particularly good job), and some added in after I got home(between the dashes and at the end)
Well that sounds like a miserable experience.
I can’t say I am very surprised because my vague memories of group therapy are equally crap. Mostly I just remember it canceling my BETTER plans of birthday parties and shit and I held a ten year grudge because of deprivation of birthday party muffins
Shown here: chocolate birthday muffin.
IT WAS IMPORTANT OK. I REALLY LIKE THAT MUFFIN. /grump grump
But yeah anyway. At the very least you have described every group project experience of my school career. Forced talking, draw on notebook, be ignored by everyone not being actively forced to interact. I just. Stop talking. My feedback from grade school was similar, if you open you mouth you will be mocked, even teachers have mocked me, why the fuck would I be motivated to talk ever after that?
I am not helpful in supporting you in this am I….
Honestly? I think it would make more sense to throw you in some sort of small group of people of shared interests and have you try and socialize that way. Because idg how throwing people who only have lack of social skills in common together and make them try and get shit done is supposed to work. Yes lets talk about not talking. This is fun I totally want to talk about this.
I bet you could find enough bad anxiety people who would like to talk about bidoofbutts. Why are therapists not utilizing the internet for this it makes more sense to me. Also it helps to have like one person who is good at conversation because I notice if you throw me in with someone who actually wants to talk to everyone I will end up fucking talking because the burden of conversation is not on me.
IDK I am probably rambling unhelpfully at this point.